.lent.

for lent, i'd like to be a better person, minimizing my complaining, forgiving and trying really hard to forget. kinda like the target bag i left in target after paying for them. yup. walked right on out without them. what was "funny" was that i called, and they said they would hold it in customer service for me to pick up the next day. when i went there, the guy pulled out a "paid and left" binder. so i'm not the only idiot that has done this, enough people have done this blunder that target had to create a whole binder for them. too funny. so i'm living in LOL with my cousins and their niece who cracks me up, but makes my ovaries shut down daily. my desire for motherhood was neither increased at ash wednesday mass last night where cranky babies had a reunion and a screaming match. i definitely prayed in church, but it sounded more like, "WHY ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH ARE YOU LETTING YOUR CHILD SCREAM LIKE THAT? PLEASE. PLEASE. DEAR LORD MAKE THAT CHILD STOP...ETC." X 1209457 in the course of an hour and 15 minutes. oh well. some are made for it. i am not. my peds rotation is not looking too promising right now. i am loving my acute rotation. i am thankful for my clinical instructor. really really thankful and blessed. oh and for lent, i'm giving up boys. yeah, that's a long story, best told over alcohol which i am trying to stay away from as well. i'm not a lot of fun these days, and that my friends, is the story of the transplant's life.

.hello.

how bout that ride in? got to tampa last night, hoping to unpack all my stuff today, only to have a monsoon on my hands to deal with. le sigh. so yeah, i'm about to start a new portion of this so called life and i'm excited to be part of this place. just gotta let the nerves settle a bit. ahh..the stomach is doing flip flops. smile, nod, cooperate to graduate. heheh...straight from the mouth of one of our professors. so a few more days to rest, and then nose to the grindstone.

.relief.

i can breathe again! i passed my practical exit exam and now i'm gearing up for my 2 internships and then ta da, graduation! i can't believe i'm at this point in my life. i feel like i was just writing about how i got accepted into OT school! i feel really fortunate to be pursuing a field that wants to help people so much. it's what i feel God made me to be, to be a servant, to help, to make someone's life just a little bit better, even if for a second. that's why i take it so hard when i don't do that, when i make someone's life more difficult, or when i end up hurting them instead of helping them. i just want to be a good person, someone that Someone will be proud of, that will make Him smile. i don't ever want to seem demanding, i just want my life to feel like it has some sort of meaning. i have already been so blessed, anything more, would just be bonus. well as you can see, i'm not being very productive with my packing, but it will come together. there's also no pressure, i don't have to take everything with me, my landlord/roommate is so understanding and such a Godsend. i start on 2/15 in tampa, so please pray for me! i love love all of you for your continual support and prayers. please know that i am so blessed and grateful for all your love.