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It is that much harder to let what belongs to us be taken without asking for it back. But the moment we accept this, we feel how light [the burden] is.--St. Therese

in addition to my vegan journey, i've been taking the time to pray more and more fruitfully. while i was the shrine on thursday, i got a stations of the cross rosary from a woman who gave them to me with the promise that i would do them everyday in a church or at home if i couldn't get to one. i've never been a big stations of the cross kinda gal, so it's been interesting doing them everyday. i like it. i feel more compassion and gratefulness for the sacrifice that Jesus made for us. it helps me to fall in love with Him more and more each day.

so yeah, i had ice-cream cake sat night. i couldn't help it. it was coldstone. my body was so mad at me! my stomach was in total knots after that. even the tea i had could not soothe it. you would think i would learn my lesson today. not really. this morning i was starving and i did good with my coffee with 2 sugars only, but i HAD to have a muffin. i couldn't deal. then my friend threw a pampered chef party, and she demoed pizza. again, couldn't resist having a slice, nor did i fare any better by having some pasta that had mozzarella cheese in it. i did better later in the evening by having bruschetta and a salad. sadness. i've been awesome at staying away from the seafood (i now mourn the loss of sushi and have sympathy pains for pregnant women who cannot consume its beauty) but the dairy is a bugger to stay away from when i'm out among friends. at home i have a better grasp on it, but yuck, i am so lame when i'm out!!! i'm afraid that i'll have to start packing food to bring with me everywhere i go.

i love food so much. such a crazy love-hate relationship!