.ponder.

hello good morning. this is my do or die week. i'd really like to do so let's keep the positive thoughts flowing. i'd like to feel like i got this! i'm going to rock whatever subject area i end up pulling. i got this! there is nothing good about stressing out about it except the motivation to do well. i got this! i sent up a special intention to Jesus this morning, and hopefully it didn't sound too selfish. b/c in end, it's always been for Him and not for me. again, whatever He wills for my life. and my friends, they have ALWAYS been there for me. i am so extremely grateful. so so so grateful for their unselfless love. please continue the prayers and good thoughts for me. love you all very much.

.cry.

tired tired tired tired tired. if you ever wanted to know what a grad student feels like the week before her exit exam, here you go.

.hello.

hello blogland, i'm still around. kinda. the house is clean, so i am "most content" as said in nanny mcphee. school is no joke! professors seem to think that we're supposed to retain all this information that we've accumulated in the past 4 semesters and sequester them without delay. it's not right. on friday, in mock clinic i had an internal mini-meltdown, and i think my professor loved it so much she picked me as one of the 4 to go observe tomorrow. yay me. <3 there's so much more to muse on, but i'm a bit delirious right now. time to get ready to bust it out tomorrow. <3
ps. i finished "Eat, Pray, Love". i loved it a lot. it made me miss italy, and it made me want to travel much more! nite kiddies.

.2009.

i raced through this year that in my mind is divided into 3 semesters of blood, sweat, and many many many tears. i started up the year by cutting into cadavers and starting a workout program after my wellness fitness profile told me i was overweight and borderline obese. gross. eased into a great break in key west and time at home before spending the summer glad to immerse myself into more OT classes than my general science classes. oh and i can't forget the infamous family reunion in vegas. yup. summer break involved surprises and disney and korean spas and loving my friends so much. my fall was full of presentations, a conference in baltimore and fear. am i really taking exit exams in january? the thought still gets me a little nauseous. i can't believe i'm sitting here with a week separating me from here to florida and back to the grind of mock clinic. i really am not ready.

accomplishments? two 5Ks, dropped some pounds, ran my longest distance of 8 miles, learned how to semi drive stick.

2010...praying i do well in mock clinic, pass my exams, rock my 2 internships, graduate, pass my OT boards and score a rockin job! this is my year to shine! who knows, i might even let the heart melt a bit. <3

.end time.

just two more days and i will be finishing my 4th semester of grad school, and my last full academic semester of classes. 5th semester consists of 5 weeks of mock clinic, exit exams and then 3 months of internship. yikes! i really can't believe this year is almost over, and i can only pray that i do really well on these 3 finals. what a year. sorry i haven't said much, there just hasn't been time or motivation. i've noticed that about myself, a lot of thoughts that i've just kept bundled in my head. but i wanted to take a timeout of studying to breathe a bit and just try to relax and feel okay about tomorrow. please pray for me, i really truly appreciate it. <3

.bmore.

just got back. too many thoughts, feelings, musings and memories to describe. still so much work to do, for school, for myself. i can do this. i just need to trust that He's got me. i gotta trust that i haven't come this far to just fall apart now. just that thought alone should pacify me, but it doesn't. not yet. need to give it time to seep into my soul and sit tight with my heart.