.thirty.

my best friend turned 30 yesterday and we celebrated by talking for about 5 minutes until she decided to hunt down a smoothie. i never imagined it would be like that, then again, i never imagined me calling her from florida and she answering the phone from her purchased home in pennsylvania. 30. i've known her for over 29 years now. yes, i am dreading it so much i decided to leave the country and celebrate in puerto rico. that and attend a wedding. okay, so i'm going to PR for the wedding, not my birthday which happens to be the day of the wedding. so luckily i will be distracted, and hopefully enough that the 30 won't sting so much whenever i have to declare it. 30. i feel it already, the senses are going, the joints are creaky and the muscles are sore. babysteps to acceptance, i'm getting there. i'm trying to be okay with this journey, trying to unload bags of regret and bitterness so that i'll feel lighter. speaking of which, i thought i was doing well with the working out thing until i weighed myself at the gym and had gained 4 pounds. not so good. anywayyyy, this is my post for july. i will try my best to be grateful for just another day to live instead of mourning the steadily increasing numbers. i will try.