i was just thinking that sometimes i feel so overwhelmed, and the only thing i can think of that makes me feel better is to just find a nice corner of a couch, wrap myself up in a down blanket and read a good book or sleep. it's a security of mine, it's a way of escaping this world that seeks to bring me down at times. i don't want to doubt myself anymore. they wouldn't have asked me into this program if they didn't think i couldn't hack it. so what's the problem then!?!
it's just that i want to wrap myself up in a blanket and make the world go away right now. i want it to make sense right away. i want to banish all the smart people that get 102s on their practicals because they answered the two bonus questions. i want to cover my ears and muffle the sounds of congratulations and satisfaction. i want to feel as good outside my blanket, as i do inside. i want clarity and conviction. i want excitement and inquisitiveness.
i want to succeed more than i can or you could ever imagine.
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