.vocation.

it's just really interesting how thoughts in my head get somehow intertwined together in a weird sort of affirmation. yesterday i met up w/ mc at citywalk in orlando, which was about an hour and 1/2 drive for me and about the same for him from tampa. mc and i are good friends, and he's always had such a special place in my heart. i could say that there was a mutual interest but the timing was always off, and now he's happily settled with a gal he's been dating for 4 years now. it was honestly really nice to spend some time with him yesterday. we just walked around, ate, walked, talked, ate some more, and walked. as i drove home, i just pondered what God wants for me and where He wishes me to be. does He want me to be single? i'm afraid i just don't listen very well. i went to sleep thinking of that, and then when i went to mass, i thought about it some more. and then wouldn't you know, the pastor's homily was on vocations, and he brought up people who are single, and how they have the opportunity to "freely" serve others. mc asked if i was going to stay in florida after graduation. honestly, i don't know. there's always the notion of going back to nj, but i just don't know. i've never felt settled, like i wanted to stay in one place forever. i kinda have the heart of a missionary. the world needs so much help, and maybe this is God's gentle way of nudging me to not be attached, to not stay for any one person.

a couple of years ago, a guy from my past found out i was moving to maryland for a resident teacher program. he asked a friend of mine, "if i told her i was in love with her, would she stay?" the guy, being typical him, never brought it up with me directly, as it was my friend who recounted the story some time later.

the answer is no. jerk. man up.

random thought on the brain: why did the sign on the car for sale say "INCREDIBLE" as if i would want to eat the darn thing? o_O