.dismay.

i have a love hate relationship with working out. i absolutely hate it with a passion. the only part i enjoy is when it is over. whenever i go running, i can't run on a treadmill because i can't seem to commit to a certain pace. when i run outdoors, i give myself landmarks to run to, and then i psych myself out to run to a further one until i get to where i want to get. i don't really see or feel too many results right now, but i think i need to be patient. realllllly patient. [sigh]. i've also tried to be really good with food. one of my favorite health aids was inspired by my godson and his lovely mother, who introduced me to steaming bags. just put the veggies you want in the bag, add seasoning if you want, and nuke them safely. you don't lose as many nutrients as you would boiling the veggies or the added calories of frying them. i've also tried to incorporate a vegan diet, so i've been trying new foods on the menu drawer, again, introduced to me by godbaby's mama.

speaking of food, yesterday i went to the farmer's market and got mucho beautiful, fresh and inexpensive veggies. i love being able to do this in the middle of "winter". it makes me appreciate living down here. but in the same breath, i wish i could take certain people and food of nj/ny and meld it with my life in florida. that would be divine. i'm sure i've said it time and time again, but i really miss fresh and outstanding asian food. dc/va is a close second, but it just absolutely sucks down here. that's also why i'm trying to do more of my own cooking. it takes more time, but eh, time well spent, if it's for making me more healthy.

i really hope that at the end of the month i can report that these changes have made a difference. i will definitely keep you updated on this journey of operation lose stace's double face.