.the present is a gift.

so i watched this, and i thought...gosh, i could've sworn i saw a toni braxton video just like this. and then i got kind of caught up in the time stamps. but i did truly love the message. tomorrow is not really guaranteed. sometimes i wonder when i wake up, is this just one more day that we won't know each other? and i'm wondering if he's okay, wherever he is, if he's even a notion at this point in my life. funny, but people mention that life is easy to live to the fullest even in singlehood. but really, it's just not the same. i get it, the grass is greener. but with all the frustration, all the independence one surrendered upon entering a relationship, all the dramatics and tears, there are few that would trade that for solitude, for being less loved. whatever His plan for me, well, that's TBD and i'm sure whatever it is, He's got a big order to fill. God's probably looking at my prayer for him and thinking, "uh, did i even make anyone like that?"
and that's the thoughts in the head of the practical hopelessly hopeful romantic.