.simplicity.

i desire to live simply, in a complicated world. i desire the quiet moments that seem so few and far between, to see life with the innocence and joy of a child. isn't it a wonder, how the littlest things make us so happy, but are the most difficult to achieve? one of the biggest blunders i think that people make, is their lack of confidence in the importance of their life. we don't care because we think people don't care. but they do, and we should. as a hard working filipina, my mother didn't ever quite grasp the concept of quality time. she thought that as long as she was keeping the household running, that that was her way of showing she cared. but as i tried to ask her to a movie last night to which she responded no, i realized we can't change people, we can only change ourselves to continue to love people because no one in this world is perfect, or the way that we want them to be. i'm getting much better at not taking things personally. i used to get so frustrated, because i was trying to work so hard to show the world that i'm a good person, and when someone would challenge that, well i would get angry and hurt. and i do inside, but i try not to show it on the outside. one day, with the grace i pray for everyday, i will accept what has been given to me, not mourn what i don't have or never had, but truly embrace life, instead of hoping it will get better. what use does it do to put stock into a future that does not yet exist? i think so much of the future, instead of just trying to put in a true quality day in the present. it's so silly. life is hard. anyone who tells you otherwise is not living to their potential. it will be all worth it in the end though. see? there i go, thinking about the future again. i just can't win. :shrug w/ wry smile:
procrastination hour is over. back to physics.