Monday, November 24, 2008

.spiraling.

i'm at that age. i'm surrounded by 23, 24 year olds, and they don't ever make me feel old. in fact, many of them don't know how old i really am. but i'm at that age. the age where i should be married off with kids, or at least settled down with someone. you know how i know i'm at that age? i went to go visit a friend from out of town. i met up with him at his wife's cousin's house, and as i was walking up to the house, this guy was standing outside and i couldn't help but check him out. he directed me through the garage and i was introduced to him later. with his young son. doh! gahhh...i'm at that age. where i scan the left hand, where i check to see if he's in the place with someone. logging on to a networking page, only to find out he's married. he's got 2 kids. he lives in a house with a white picket fence and here's a picture of the ring he gave her. am i swimming in an emotional upstream? a sea of weddings, engagement parties, baby showers, bridal showers, birthday parties. party of one, or in some cases, ostacy +1, ostacy and guest.

i'm fine, but i'm not.

1 comment:

the teeny city yogini. said...

i've been there. no, i am there. content with my life but having a nagging feeling in the back of my head like somehow i missed the exit on the freeway and everyone else got off without me. i'm ok behind the wheel but i can't help but wonder what everyone else is doing.